Well today was rather eventful xD,
I was man-handled to the shop to help out (which I really didnt want to do >_<)
Sadly, my excuse for "revising" didnt work this time D:
So, I went down to the shop with mumaa, papa and spam :3
& was put on delivery duty.
I mean come on, I cant drive and can barely read a map whattya want me to do it for :(
BUT it turns out I CAN read a map n_n

I got my first tip of £1 ^_^ by a nice nice mann :) (not pedo btw)
Got my first "Merry Christmas" from this woman :)
THEN I met a Rolf Harris look alike ^^ he's so sweeet -pinches cheeks-
he gave me £1 + 20p tipp ^^
BUT then, the real deal came at the last two deliveries of the day.

As per usual, I was looking at the map,
Papa peering over my shoulder with his uber zoomed in lenses xD
Then we scoot off and get going, but the man wanted skanky mayfair and vodka so we got it.
D:
I was scared out of my pants, good thing papa came with me this time
I was like a guy who also asks for this MUST be kinda drunk sooo...
"DAD YOU'RE COMING WITH ME YOU DONT HAVE A CHOICE!!!"
So, I stand behind papa, he presses the buzzer.
-no response-
press again -buzz-, still not response
so I press it, and this time for longer, and then a "Hello?"
I told him I was delivering he said come up, so i figured the door would open (this is a flat by the way)
I pressed again thinking it was meant to open but it didnt
pressed again and again, then heard a "Coming" then
-thump-
I thought *SHAT I'VE KILLED HIM O_O*
then a *groan* "Ow, that hurt" <= ya think? you did just jump off some stairs!!!
so, he slowly crawled to the door, while I was like AHHHH inside me, and pushed papa forward ^^"

he was clearly drunk.

but gave good tip n_n wakakaka
made a total of:
£13.42 tip ^_^
I think thats rather funky for a days work :3
considering I cant drive ^^

I was thinking before I went to work,
while I was looking at someone's profile,
if I had told you, then would it be different?
if I had told you, then would there be an us?
if I had told you, would I be happier?
but then, I guess i'll never know, since I never told you,
& I guess I never will.
but there must of been a reason I never did it, maybe we were just not meant to be,
maybe there was not meant to be an us?
who knows
...
but I know that what I want is something which will come in time,
there wont be someone who meets all those standards,
but if I have someone who has most of those qualities,
I know I will be so happy as it is :)
so, i'll wait laa, because I know you're out there la,
you're just with all the wrong people :)

Merry Christmas everyone LOVEEE <3

I was told not to believe in fairytales, because they're a false interpretation of reality.
But I believe.
I believe because I want it to happen.
I want a Prince Charming to come riding along on his horse, take me home and love me forever.
I want a happy ending.
But is there such thing?

I was watching ma me as she sat on the sofa ringing my relatives in HK to reassure them everything is okay.
When she was explaining the situation, I could hear the lump in her throat.
I could hear the change in her voice.
I could hear she was screaming to cry.
But didnt.
I know she is trying to not cry.
To stay strong.
It tears me up.

I saw him today, he looked better.
Remembered Mum.
Remembered Me.
But forgot Pau Pau.

She took her hat off.
She asked again.
He shooked his head.
Looking bewildered.
I looked into her eyes, I saw how one minute they were full of hope.
Full of happiness, then it dropped, when she heard those 3 words.
"I dont remember."
Her eyes welled up, wet with tears.
I looked into his eyes, I saw how they were trying.
Trying so hard to remember, but couldnt.
Giving up, by looking down at his hands.

They said he can come home tomorrow.
My heart filled with joy, finally he's getting better.
But then,
...
This fairytale was never meant to have an ending.
An unexpected beginning with no ending.
Left with nothing but false hope, believing some good will come of it,
Leading us on to trust this belief, only for it to be crushed.

A chest infection.
A faulty heart.
A bewildered man.
A t o r n family.
A b re a ki ng heart.